The Sparkle King
by
Patrick A. Roland
GENRE: Autobiography
/ Memoir
BLURB:
In 2014, Patrick lost
his partner, Pack, suddenly and without warning. As he struggled to come to
terms with this, he was faced with homophobic prejudice from his partner's
family. In horrendous emotional pain and feeling desperately lonely and
depressed, he started to use recreational drugs heavily and hit rock-bottom
whilst on a trip to Las Vegas.
After being diagnosed with bipolar disorder and
getting clean from drugs and alcohol, Patrick thought his fight was over.
However, this was not the case. Life had many other obstacles in store for him
but this time, he knew how to be strong and he knew he had God on his side for
support.
This inspiring and emotive true story shows how
anyone can overcome the hurdles life presents them with, if they just have
faith and focus on their inner strengths.
Excerpt:
In
the summer between seventh and eighth grade, I lost nearly forty pounds. To go
with my svelte new look, I asked my grandmother—a hairdresser—to give me a perm.
My dad had always had one so I thought it was something men did. However, when
I emerged on campus on the first day of eighth grade at a new school, the
reactions were sinister and cruel. Now I was suddenly very gay—the weight loss
exaggerated my feminine mannerisms—even though it would be several years before
I realized that and boldly claimed it as my sexual identity.
Things
got considerably worse in high school. I went to a fancy and pricey all-boys
Catholic college preparatory school. I tried desperately to fit in, but my
“friends” wanted nothing to do with me. At parties, they held me under water in
the pool. Once, they tricked me in to climbing up onto a roof with them only to
try and push me off of it. They called me a lot of names, but the one I remember
most is ‘The Whipping Boy’. I held on to that name for years. It seemed to
always fit, no matter where I went or what I did to try and remove myself from
it.
College
also started rocky, but got better in time. I had decided to attend the alma
mater of my mother in a small town in Iowa. I felt like it was my chance to
start over and carve a new life out for myself, and I eventually did. But the
first week started out just like everything else had. I was walking down the
hallway and I was suddenly grabbed from behind by a crew of three masked men.
They pulled me into my room, threw me on the floor and smothered and attacked
me, beating my face with long socks that were filled with something that was
supposed to make them look like giant penises. I think they were trying to mock
me for being gay, but the fact that these men spent so much time stuffing socks
to look like penises seemed gayer to me. Maybe something about me made them
afraid of their own truth.
Interview
with Patrick A. Roland
Can you tell us a
little bit about your next books or what you
have planned for the
future?
Before I did it, I never knew I was going to write one book, let
alone three in less than 4 years, so the honest answer is that I have no idea what
the future will bring as far as books go. Both non-fiction books came about
because of very painful things I endured and found my way through. I felt
inspired to share the journey with others so they knew they could find their
way out of bad times too. My intention has always been to be an example of
someone who was dealt a bad card and relied on my personal strengths - and
faith - to persevere. I have been going through something bad in the last
couple of months, but it’s not completely resolved, and now I’m also knee deep
in getting my master’s degree in counseling, working full-time and taking care
of two terminally ill parents; plus I have to work a program if I want to
remain sober.
I’d love to see my children’s book become a series because I would
love to be able to talk about things that are hard to talk about with children
in a fun, light way that helps kids feel like whoever they are - and whatever
they are going through - is totally ok. I’d love to see Sparkle get diagnosed
with mental illness, or lose a loved one, or experience addiction so that kids
could learn about these things.
How long would you say
it takes you to write a book?
I’ve written both of my non-fiction books in less than two weeks
each (about 10 days). I got very inspired and it all spilled out of me. In both
cases, there were two or three chapters that came a few months later that I
felt really rounded out the story and completed them. The editing process on
both books, however, took more time, but I am thankful for the process because
it allows the work to become what it is really supposed to do.
What is your favorite
childhood book?
I always loved stories about misfits or misunderstood people who
find love, friendship and acceptance, so there was this book I remember having
to read in the sixth grade about an older recluse man who forms an unlikely
friendship with two teenagers. It was called The Pigman and it was written by
Paul Zindel.
What made you want to
become a writer?
I’ve always been a writer but I decided to write books because I
got sober at 40 and decided to start living out my dreams. I had this audacious
idea I could find beauty in the ugliest things I endured and use my brokenness
to inspire people about the truth: that all that bad stuff made me beautiful
and that it is why I sparkle so brightly today.
How long have you been
writing?
It’s slightly ironic I write predominantly about working through
grief because the very first thing I ever wrote was a poem in the sixth grade
about my dog who had died. I won a state award because of it and even though I
thought I was going to be some kind of psychologist, I guess my ability to
write in a way that connected with people fulfilled that need for human
connection in me so I became a writer as a career, first as a newspaper report
and later in corporate America.
How did you become
involved with the subject or theme of your
book?
I lived it. I endured several tragedies and personal experiences
and I wanted to make sure that people who had similar experiences knew they
weren’t alone. Our darkness is what actually creates our brightest light, so if
you feel like things are particularly bleak, just have patience, the miracle is
coming. You just gotta walk through the fear in it first.
For those interested
in exploring the subject or theme of your
book, where should
they start?
Some said my first book, Unpacked Sparkle, was hard to take
because some of my story is painful to read. Imagine living it! I’ve matured a
lot in sobriety. This new book, The Sparkle King, introduces a more thoughtful,
faith-based side of me, and I am so far removed from my painful beginnings that
all there is left is the light and joy I have found in the journey. So, I would
start with this one and read Unpacked Sparkle next since The Sparkle King shows
you who I really am.
(a Favorite song:
The Greatest Love of All, Whitney Houston
(b Favorite book:
Beloved, Toni Morrison
(c Favorite movie:
Boys Don’t Cry
(d Favorite tv
show:
Beverly Hills, 90210
(e Favorite Food:
Mexican
(f Favorite drink:
Diet Coke. I wish I was drinking one now!
AUTHOR
Bio and Links:
Patrick
A. Roland is a gay, bipolar, ex-drug addict, widowed abuse survivor and the
author of three great books. His first, Unpacked Sparkle: a Story of Grief and
Recovery, kicks off his journey of sobriety and self-love following the death
of his partner, Pack, in January 2014. This book was published by Az Publishing
and is available on Amazon.
His
second book is a children’s book called Sparkle On! This book is about a gecko
who is constantly constant bullied but chooses to fight this with love.
His
new book, The Sparkle King, keeps the sparkle flowing as Patrick finds his way
through several fear-inducing experiences by constantly choosing faith to
overcome them in long-term sobriety.
Patrick
lives in Phoenix, Az. He is a peer support at a mental health clinic, where he
helps others just like himself. He’s also earning a Master’s in Addiction
Counselling at Grand Canyon University and is taking care of his elderly,
terminally ill parents. He wants you to know you can do anything you decide to
do if you love yourself.
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9 comments:
Thanks for hosting!
Thank you for the interview and excerpt ^^
I am enjoying these tours and finding all the terrific books my family is enjoying reading. Thanks for bringing them to us and keep up the good work.
Where do you do most of your writing?
Cool, definitely will enjoy treading this
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thanks all for your support!
Thank you for the interview and the excerpt
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